You were my rock, my anchor. We were more than just “friends” in my eyes, we were family. You and I, spent every day talking and laughing together. I will never forget that one day that you found out that I was eating lunch in the bathroom everyday. That day you invited me to eat with you, and we became more like sisters than friends. Over the four years I knew you, we learned to lean on each other. We learned about each other's faults, but we still managed to love and care for each other. Those four years were amazing. You provided a safe place for me when I felt like the world was against me. You taught me to believe in myself, and to believe in others...even when they didn't deserve it. You were there for me when my best friend passed. You were there when I got my heart broken for the first time. Little did I know, that the next time that my heart was torn apart... it was going to be because of you.
One day, after four years, you were gone. You cut off all contact with me. You stopped asking how college was going. You even came to see me in a play but didn't stay to say hi. It was like one moment I looked out in the audience and you were there. Smiling. Then when the curtain closed... you were gone. Like a ghost. Our whole friendship came crashing down. It made me feel like our friendship was fake. Like it never existed. I trusted you. I gave you a piece of my heart. I let you in when I didn't want to.
The truth is, I miss you... people say I should forget about you and move on. Or that I should have ill feelings towards you. But I don't. I can't. You see, even if you just up and left you still made four years that were complete hell... a lot more manageable.
I see you on the streets, or hanging out with your dog... and I smile. I see how happy you are. I see how your life has just moved on... without me. I still think about you every day. So if you're reading this, please know that I still love you. I will always love you. You were my best friend in high school. I would give anything to hug you and to just say hi.
Please know that I hold no bad feelings and that I respect your choice to move on from our friendship. Please know that I will still keep you in my prayers, and I will still ask people how you're doing.
I wish nothing but the best for you.
Sincerely,
The Freshman Who You Saved.
