Dear old friend,
We went our separate ways due to our differences. However, you sadly changed for the worse and I am sorry for that. There was a side of you that I finally figured out, that was not the person I thought you were. The other side of you was the complete opposite I ever envisioned you to be, and I am sorry I had to see it. I am sorry for your downfall and it's sad that you can not even realize it and I have to watch the whole thing right in front of my eyes. I thought you were a better person than I thought. I hate being disappointed in you. I hate the fact you can't even own up to your own emotions and I hate that things ended up the way they did.
I now recognize you used me for your own benefit. You poured your "feelings" out to me to make me feel better about everything and to keep me around. In the beginning, I know you actually did care, but in the end, I was only around for your own good. I would do anything for you now, but you would not in the return. Instead, I would have to hear some excuse of the night and pretend that it was okay. In the end, I was only good to you when you wanted me to be there, which was past 11 pm on the select nights you even wanted to be with me which was not fair to my own emotions.
Over the course of the relationship, too much changed too quick. We had the world in our hands the first few months. We had fun together, we went out places, had fun movie nights, saw each other almost every day, and then after winter break, everything changed. Out of nowhere you distant yourself with no explanation, lost all your care, and making an effort to talk to me was too much for you. You would see me in public and turn your back and then get annoyed I was upset with you for it.
I feel sorry for letting this get this far and allowing this to hurt this much now. I regret the time wasted and the too many second chances. I should have left a long time ago because I know I deserved better but I always try to hold on to something that matters to me, but for you, it's so simple to make a decision and walk away. There were so many times that you were okay not talking situations out and okay with just walking away as if none of this ever mattered. I should have known right then I should have been strong and walked away to find someone who treats me the way I should be treated because if someone tells you how much they care for you, they should fight back for you rather than just letting you walk away.
You were always toxic for me, and I guess I just needed to lose you to realize this. You're not the same person you were when I first met you, however, neither am I. The difference is, I have learned many lessons along this journey and am now a stronger and better person, while you are an untruthful person that needs to find themselves. Thank you for showing me that some of the closest people in your life can also be the ones that break your heart and make you feel worthless. I hope you look back to this in the future and realize that you truly have changed and I hope you have also learn in the future to respect people who truly do care about you rather than lying to them all along the way.
