You might be thinking that this article is about those in my life who I love and cherish the most. Even though that is very true that those specific people made me look at life differently, I am talking about the ones who made me feel like I wasn't worth it or good enough. This is for the people who made me feel like I didn't belong here.
All I got to say to you is thank you. Thank you for making me feel like I wasn't worth enough or that I wasn't pretty enough. I didn't think I belonged here and that I was never going to make any friends. I felt depressed, lonely, and had such a negative outlook on life. I didn't think life was all that special and great because of what I was feeling and what I felt about myself. I spent endless hours wondering what was wrong with me to the point where I didn't even see a point. I would look at myself in the mirror and see a person I wasn't happy seeing. You could tell by the look in my face that I was defeated and tired of trying to impress everyone around me at that time. I wasn't who I wanted to be; trying to be someone that everyone would love. I would try to get the prettiest clothes and go to the best stores just to try and impress you. All I would end up with is a lonely girl trying to find her way in this crazy, mean world. Life was going on around me and I was missing out on all it had to offer because I was trying my best to get people to like me. I was put down for the longest time and finally came to the realization that enough was enough. Because of you, I wanted to better myself for all the right reasons. I was sick and tired of trying to impress anyone just so they can like me and every time getting judged for it. I decided to stand up for myself and focus on what truly matters in my life, positivity and happiness. Thank you for showing me all the wrong ways to live life. Thank you for having me realize that it isn't all about how many people like you, it's about who is always there and will never turn your back on you. Thank you for endless nights where I couldn't sleep because I thought something was wrong with me.
I learned to embrace my flaws, love myself, and live a life with nothing but happiness and positive vibes. I may have days where I am down and out, but I look back and think of how much I went through being friends with the wrong people. I have amazing friends now and sometimes I think to myself, how did I get so lucky? I know these friends will be there forever.
This isn't because I hate you, I am not writing this to start something that was left in the past. This is for all the girls who need encouragement to get out while you can and live a life worth living. Don't let them get you down. You are so much more than that.
So thank you to those people for letting me into your life and seeing how you live it and showing me that I don't want to live that way. I hope you are doing well because I am doing perfectly fine.
