To you, the one who will right all his wrongs, the one who will sweep me off my feet. Whoever you are, thank you because the moment you walk into my life every ache my heart has ever felt will fade into the darkness. I should warn you that I will fail you…a lot. I will overreact about insignificant things and I’ll push you to your limits. There may be times where I drive you crazy and you wonder how you’ll ever deal with me.
I’m not easy to love, and for that I’m sorry. I hope you’re patient, honest, loving, and kind because that’s exactly what I need. I’ve dealt with my fair share of selfish people and my heart can’t take it anymore. I need someone as selfless as I am, someone who is willing to put me first sometimes. I need your patience and reassurance, no matter how annoying I become, I need it.
I’m sorry I can’t hand you my trust on a silver platter. I’m sorry someone stole my ability to jump head first, all in from the very start. I had to learn the hard way that not everyone deserves your love, so I’m hesitant to ever give it to someone again.
I’m sorry there will be times I pull away from you for, shutting myself down for no reason. I’m sorry I’ll change a song because I can’t deal with the pain it brings me. I’m sorry I’ll shut down when we argue out of fear that you’ll leave me.
I’m sorry you’ll see me wince when I hear his name and see the pain register on my face when the thought of him lingers in my mind. I’m sorry that there will be days where you question if I’m over him or not, I know that thought will dance across your mind and it will hurt. I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry that I’ll get jealous. You’re so amazing that I want you all to myself and after dealing with dishonesty and cheating; I’ll always be protective of what’s mine.
I’m sorry that I’m sensitive. The biggest problem that comes with having a heart as big as mine is the fact that my feelings get hurt…a lot. There will be times that I break down and cry, sometimes over nothing, I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that when you tell me you love me, I might be hesitant. My love has been used, abused and taken advantage of, and it’s taken a toll on my heart. Those three magic words have fallen from dishonest lips and fallen hard against the pavement.
I hope your soul can see past all the pain in mine, a kind soul who never sees my wrongdoings and experiences as a disability. I don’t need you to fix me, just hold me while I fix myself.
I hope you know I never do anything halfway, so when I love you, it’ll be with every ounce of my heart and soul. I’ve even been told I’m “too much” for people, too much love, too much passion, too many words. I will never dull myself for someone else again because I will be just enough for you. I know it.
I can’t wait to love you.
