I don't feel sorry for you because you don't have a relationship with your daughter, because cancellation after cancellation after cancellation and excuse after excuse after excuse there is nobody to blame besides yourself.
I do, however, feel sorry for you because you've got no idea how many joyful moments you're missing out on. First holidays, her learning how to crawl and stand and walk, her learning how to talk. You're missing out on all of her first year milestones. Sure, you're getting out of having to change dirty diapers and comforting a teething baby all night, multiple nights in a row but that's also cuddles and bonding that you're missing out on. Those phases end, the love your child gains for you because of it... doesn't.
I feel bad because by the time by the time you're done living out your party years, it's going to be too late for you to build a strong relationship with your daughter. She's going to know mommy, and mommy only. By the time that you are finally ready to be a father shes not going to think of you as her dad... she'll see you and think "stranger."
I don't mind being a single parent. Actually, I love it. Not only do I prove my strengths to myself every single day but my daughter will know that no matter where she and I end up in life, I will always be able to support her. She'll know i will always have her back. That type of bond is something you're never going to experience with your daughter because even if you decide to try to build a relationship with her later on in life, she wont be able to depend on you because she'll always remember that you weren't there in the beginning.
I feel sorry for you because you'll have to watch another man step up to the plate and be the dad that you decided that you couldn't be, and the dad that your daughter needs.
Regardless of if you try come back around or not, my daughter will grow up blissfully and beautifully. I am fully prepared and capable to do whatever it takes to give my daughter everything she needs, wants, and asks for.
A Single Mom Doing Just Fine On Her Own