Love is truly beautiful until your heart is stretched out for over a year's length. You think you found happiness -- but have you? Let me help you imagine that tender heart you messed with.
What could I have possibly done to your heart?
Well, for the first thing, I was learning to love for the first time. I took on a love for you and no one else! I was daring, at such a tender moment in my life, to take you on and let you in. My strength was growing, my mind was curious, and my heart was fragile. You managed to have broken it after leading me on for a year.
How did you lead me on?
You managed to make me happy and always kept a smile on my beautiful face. You also managed never to let me go, but why? Was it because you wanted to come back to me after someone didn’t work out for you? Or was it because you knew I was so head-over-heels for you that you never thought I'd ever let go? I only wasted most of my body’s tears on you, asking myself, why? What did I do?
Well, are you OK?
Truthfully, I will never be OK. I am currently still torn. It is almost as if when you get a cut, and it turns into a scar; there's a scar on one little part of my heart. I have trouble loving again. I have managed to hurt people along the way, and I have no clue why! I hate myself at times because of you. I hear your ringtone go off, and I used to get happy, but now I get nauseous. Although, don't worry, I will be OK.
Is there anything I can do?
No. You have done what you can do, and that is building me into the woman I am today. Thank you for that, seriously. I'm glad I have the scar, I truly mean it. I now plan on being careful and loving someone who can give me what I deserve. You are still a friend, but nothing more.
I will always want more with you because I truly believe love doesn't fade away ever after it has flooded your body. My heart and mind still think of you. You still will never text me first or have a conversation with more than just, “Hey,” “How are you?” That is OK. Please, all I ask is that you do not pull me in again. I am better off without you. So, to the man that led me on for a year, thank you!
