To The Girl Who Was Supposed To Leave Me Hanging

Let's be honest, if it wasn't for a heartbreak and Facebook, we may never have gotten where we are today. I say that lightly because I know God would've brought you into my life somehow or another. He knew we needed each other at the most perfect timing.

We knew of each other through social media and mutual friends, but we had never actually met or even said "hello." I remember two people telling me how you "were." Let's take a moment and praise God they were wrong. I guess we both know now that they ended up leaving me hanging... not you.

They had warned me about you, and at the mean time, they were my backbone. They were one of my good friends and my boyfriend. I also say that lightly because my "good friend" left me high and dry and things between us were never the same... plus things didn't work out between me and that boy. At the time, who wouldn't believe that they wanted what was best for me? I still remember scrolling past your name or passing you on the highway and if one didn't say something negative about you, the other one did. I had heard stories about how you had been so close to people and then ran off and told their secrets, or just dropped them like it was nothing. It was all hear say, and I think jealousy had a big part to do with it. I was automatically rooting against you anyway, because that's all I ever knew.

So now the day comes where we're both heartbroken over ruthless boys who had the nerve to break our hearts. I was barely surviving and you were pushing through right along with me, according to your post. I remember looking at my phone one Monday night and seeing your name pop up. YOU had sent ME a message... offering YOUR friendship and some encouraging words. I opened your message with a clear head and took each word into thought. Were you really being nice, or were you being nosy? It didn't end up mattering because I sent back my friendship and offered a shoulder to cry on. We ended up having a relatively deep and honest conversation that night, telling each other about everything under the sun, especially those boys, and from there on out... you never left my side.

I eventually had to tell my friend that you were now a real accessory in my life. She rolled her eyes, mumbled under her breath, and continued to put your name to shame. The person I am didn't allow that. I couldn't judge you by how you treated them back in high school. I could only speak about how you treated me now. I ended up getting defensive and that's when I knew I had your back forever. We went on every day and you ended up being a bigger and bigger part in my life. My friend ended up moving and you became my go to girl when I needed someone: physically, emotionally, and mentally.

You learned my biggest flaws, my deepest insecurities, my bad habits, and my fears. You met my family, and I met yours. We ended up eating dinner together every other night and we were together a lot of weekends. We would stay up every night catching up, like we hadn't already talked all day. We started making life long memories and inside jokes. We rode around and jammed out to "Strawberry Wine" on our hardest nights. We shared tears together and never looked back. We were inseparable, and if we weren't together then nothing changed. You slowly became the girl I called when I had good news, when I needed someone to have my back, when I needed a good laugh, or when I needed someone to wipe my tears. You became my best friend, against all odds. You had showed me how a real best friend should treat me.

Lastly, you never left me hanging when I basically told you to. At one point in the beginning of our friendship, I pushed you away and started letting the words of my peers, my so called friend and (ex) boyfriend, affect the way I treated you. You gave me my space but also reassured me every single day you weren't going anywhere and you wouldn't hold it against me if I walked out of this friendship. You gave me a choice but in a way, you wouldn't let me leave. I appreciated that more than you'll ever know. The moment I knew you'd never let me down though... that was the moment I told you that I deal with major depression, and you never let my hand go. Some days I just needed to be alone and I'd take it out on you, but your stubbornness never let that affect our friendship. You'd still be waiting at my door for when I was ready to open up about it and cry on your shoulder. You have been there through the absolute roughest time of my life, and you've grown with me. You've been there for the heartbreak, bad decisions, regrets, sleepless nights, tears, anger, arguments, stressful days, and the times I had lost myself. You led me back to who I really was and you never let me forget I was a princess again. God knew exactly what He was doing bringing us together. So here's to us, our friendship, an awful heartbreak, and Facebook messenger for bringing us together.

So this is to you. Thank you for proving everyone wrong and standing up for me when the whole world is walking over me. Thank you for believing in me and for never letting me stray too far away. Thank you for sharing your life and time with me. Thank you for being my person. I love you more than all of the chicken nuggets, tacos, and ice cream in the world!

Love, the girl you NEVER left hanging.