First off, I want to inform you that it is not wrong to care more about others than yourself. Stop thinking that you will be made fun of for putting others first. I promise you that will never be the case. I know you hate saying no to people, because you know what it feels like to be turned down all the time. You try so hard to keep everyone happy around you, even if it takes pieces of your own heart... But who is there for you? You never turn down when someone is venting to you simply because you know how it feels to be ignored when you need someone the most. You know how it feels to be ignored in your group of friends talking, or to even be cut off mid-sentence. With that being known, you make sure to always hold your thoughts in so everyone around you can finish their sentence and not feel the way you do. The sad part is, you do all of this for others, but do you truly think any of them will ever feel this way about you? They mistake your chuckle and small smirk of a smile for an okay to walk all over you, and that is NOT okay.
People are constantly taking your big heart for granted and you’re allowing them to keep breaking it over and over again. You are constantly checking in on how people feel even when they read your messages and don’t respond to you for weeks. You stay up for hours and lose sleep that you barely get, just to help out your friend who is crying and needs your support. I know this may sound like you are letting everyone walk all over you, and although that is true at times, it isn’t true all the time. You see, people come to you because they know you will always put them before you ever put yourself. People come to you because they know you have such a big and caring heart, even if you are hurting yourself. People always come to you because they know that even though you are not emotionally stable, you will put your emotions aside just to even make that person smile. That, my friend, is called being strong for everyone around you. You put a cast around your heart so you won’t be hurt anymore, but you will break that cast over and over if it meant it was fixing someone else’s heart. Although there is nothing wrong with caring for others, I just need you to stop for one second. Please stop and notice what it is doing to you and your heart. You are falling apart again and who is there to pick you up? No one. I know you can do this though, you’ve always been so strong even through your hardest times. I promise you that someday someone will appreciate how caring you are and take care of you the way you take care of them. I know you won’t stop helping people, you’re just not like that - but I do ask you to please take time out for yourself too. I know some people tell you you're selfish for saying you can’t deal with them at the time, and it makes you feel broken and horrible, but I promise you’ll feel worse later if you don’t take care of yourself. I know you will probably still throw your emotions away to help them, and that is okay. But please do not let them take you and your heart for granted. Please wake up, you are hurting yourself.. I love you.
Love,
The Girl This Is Written About