As much as I wish they didn't, boys have a really awful way of making me feel like a total fool. Why is it that boys make us girls feel like we're stupid, crazy, stalkers, etc? Why is it that when the boy that you thought liked you leaves the bar or part with another girl you feel like the stupid one for being upset about it? You make yourself feel like all of this is your fault
He tells you all of the nice things you want to hear, asks you about your day and just makes it seem like he genuinely cares about you just for him to leave with the girl that is the total opposite of you.
You'll sit there and compare her looks to yours. Wondering why and what he sees in her that you don't have. Comparing her life to yours wondering what she has going for her that you don't. You start to blame yourself. Saying it was your fault. You knew nothing would come from your snap streak. Yet you still let yourself catch feelings knowing exactly who he was and what he was known for. And you know what? You shouldn't have to sit there and do those things. You shouldn't have to feel crazy for wanting to see him or see how his night is going. You shouldn't have to feel like a stalker when you walk into the same bar as him when you didn't even know he was there. You shouldn't have to feel stupid when he leaves with that girl. You should feel like the smartest woman on the planet for finding out early before your feelings became even stronger.
Don't get me wrong- it 100% sucks that he didn't turn out to be the person you thought he could be, or he did turn out to be the person you were warned that he was, but you dodged a bullet. You could've been that girl he left with but thank God that you weren't. You went home by yourself or with your friends while he uses the girl that doesn't care about him. He might think he won tonight by leaving with the girl that was willing to give up everything, including her dignity, for him.
Just know that you're the real winner. You kept your dignity, your clothes, your body, and as corny as it is; your heart. You're the true winner by not leaving with him. So congrats, babe, you missed out on a serious mess and now you get to find the man that really cares about you. The one that wants to keep that snapstreak alive just as much as he wants to keep your smile on your face. The one that respects you enough to end the night with a kiss on the front porch instead of a hook up in his truck. Your real winner is out there you just have to give him time to realize who his priz is.
