I don't really understand why you left, or why you decided that our friendship wasn't something you wanted to be involved with anymore. We didn't have a fight, or even a disagreement, but you walked away. I wish I understood.
We were so close. I would text and call you about everything, and we were together so much that others automatically assumed that we were a double package. Midnight adventures and spontaneous trips were always so much more fun when we were together. I felt like I could talk to you about anything and you would listen and be there for me. When we were close, I would have done anything for you - seriously. I hope you know that I would go above and beyond for you. I wanted to be the one you would go to when you had a bad day, or when you talked to a really cute guy, or when you just wanted someone to come over and watch movies with you. You were one of my very best friends.
But then everything changed, and I'm not really sure why. You decided that you didn't want to be close to me anymore, and still to this day, I don't really understand why. You decided to put every other friend before me, and would rarely respond when I tried to reach out. At first, it hurt a lot. I spent a couple months heartbroken over the friendship I was losing, but then I decided to let go too. I decided that I couldn't continue pursuing a friend that didn't want me in their life. That would hurt too much.
I still wonder daily what happened to us, and I still remember how close we once were and feel my heart sink. I know full well that some people are only meant to be in our lives for a certain amount of time, but it's still hard to let go of someone you were once so close to. I value my friendships immensely, and so losing anyone who once held such a great portion of my heart is difficult. Some say that losing a boyfriend, or experiencing your first heartbreak, is hard, and while it is, sometimes losing a friend like you is just as hard.
I hope that wherever you go in life, you're incredibly successful. I hope you find an amazing job, marry an amazing man, and raise beautiful children. I hope you are able to find many friends you can confide in and trust. And, at the end of the day, I still hope we will be friends again. I hope you'll call me up one day and ask me to go out for coffee and we will talk and laugh just like old times. But if not, I am very thankful for the friendship we once had.
