I’ve been thinking about you lately. I’ve been wondering how you are and what you’re up to these days. I’ve been thinking about what happened between us and I wonder if it even crosses your mind anymore—If I even cross your mind anymore.

“We’ve been growing a part anyway.” The sentence still crushes me. To be honest, I was mad at you for a long time. How could I not be mad at you? You ruined me from the inside out and you made it look so easy. You made it easy to believe that I wasn’t worth it; that life wasn’t worth it.

I look back on what happened and I don’t have it in me to be mad or bitter. All I really want to say is thank you.

Thank you for the great friendship.

We really did have a great run. You were one of the best friends I have ever had. All of the fun memories we have replay in my mind once in a while and they still make me laugh despite what happened.

Thank you for teaching me to be myself.

I watched you try to change yourself for others and I always wondered why you didn’t want to be your true self. I loved your true self. I don’t have it in me to change myself for others. If they don’t for me then other people will. I have started to find more of those people and I hope you do too.

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to lose myself completely.

Since you left, my life has been a roller coaster. I have finally been able to find myself again and I am slowly but surly starting to love who I have become.

Most of all, Thank you for leaving me at my worst.

Because I’m finally at the point in my life where I can say I’m starting to be at my best. I’m starting to accept my weaknesses and I’m starting to discover my strengths. I’m finally starting to see the light and it is so bright.

I wish you could see that I’m not completely broken anymore. Thank you for the friendship, thank you for allowing me to learn about myself, and most importantly, thank you for teaching me to be strong.