Our relationship was like nothing I've ever experienced before, so the day we ended it will always be a day I look back on with a broken heart. You absolutely broke me, but somehow I will always love you.

We were best friends and we loved harder than I even knew was possible. So when you broke up with me, it came as a shock. I was floored. I didn't know how to react, so I just begged you to stay. Begged you to hold on just a little bit longer because I knew we could work through whatever it was that was causing you to do the one thing I never thought was going to happen.

The second we broke up, my entire future changed, because you were my entire future. Every single thing that I had planned for myself involved you. And suddenly, my future was empty and nonexistent. I didn't know what to do.

Falling in love with you was easy; being in love with you was even easier. But trying to move on and fall out of love with you was one of the hardest things I've ever had to force myself to do, and I still haven't actually found a way to do it. Now several months later, I've had time to reflect on us and our relationship. While our relationship was one of the best things to ever happen to me, it was also not the best.

Even though I was over the moon happy with you, I put myself on the back burner. I wasn't doing anything for myself, and I didn't realize it until I took a step back, but I was hurting myself. I wasn't hanging out with my friends, I wasn't reading or writing, and I never went home to see my family. My entire world revolved around you and I had no idea of the toll it was taking on my own life.

I know that I'm always going to love you and that you're always going to be the ex that I love forever and look back on with a smile on my face. We just weren’t ready for us to happen quite yet.

I hope you get everything you've ever hoped for or dreamed about because you deserve all of the good things this world has to offer. I hope you can grow into the person you always said you wanted to be.

You were my first real love and first real heartbreak, but I needed my heart to be broken in order for me to find myself and who I am without you. You helped me find the reason to figure myself out and to really dig deep into who I want to be.

To say you lost out is an understatement because I'm fucking gold, but you'll never get to see just how bright I will shine.

So for now, I just want to thank you. For all of the laughs and all of the hugs and all of the good times we shared. None of it will be forgotten.