Shoutout to the radiologist that was with me today. I know I was a pain. I'm a 20 year old who is scared of needles and has so much anxiety I can't even talk at times. Thank you for asking if I wanted to squeeze your hand, even though I said no just you saying that helped calm me. Thank you for putting your hang on my leg and rubbing it a little. You helped keep me grounded. Just that little pressure through the blanket kept me from having a panic attack. Thank you for listening to me and for being understanding of my situation. I'm sorry I didn't say thank you...I hope that somehow you know the impact you had on my day.

I have come across so many health care professionals who look at me as a 20 year old who has a needle phobia with no compassion.

It sucks!

I know I can be difficult in situations with a needle but this fear is not something I can control. Professionals adding to an already stressful situation by being rude or not considering how I'm feeling have come across far too often in my health journey. Mental illness is just as important as physical illness. All medical professionals should have knowledge and understanding on how to treat those with phobias, anxiety, depression, etc.

I do not choose to be afraid of needles. I do not choose to not talk. I do not choose to have my whole body to shake or my heart to race.

It would be helpful if more professionals were understanding.

And since I have the choice to voice my opinion, I will! Because there needs to be change.