To the Boy Who is my Best Friend:
Thank you for always being there for me. Your friendship means so much to me but you already know that. I value you as a person. You've been my best friend since our freshman year. I still remember the late nights with both of us sitting outside of Conver until 3 AM. Those are some of my favorite memories, to be honest. They also happen to be some of the most important talks we've ever had. Our friendship has gotten me through so much during these last four years. I hope I never lose you as a friend.
To the Boy Who I Fell in Love With:
You taught me what love is really supposed to be like. I didn't realize how poorly I had been treated in the past until you came along and treated me the way I deserved to be treated (and I know that I showed you this as well). There are nights that we stayed up till 5 AM talking, you know the nights I'm talking about, and those nights were rare. I told you things I don't think I've ever told anyone before. You gave so much in our relationship and I hope you know, even with the problems and the fights we had, I wouldn't change any of it. I would take it exactly as it was because it taught me so much. Our relationship was nowhere near perfect but then again, neither are we.
To the Boy Who Broke my Heart:
Part of me wishes I could hate you, but that's a very small part of me. The larger part of me gets it. I think it's fair to say that us ending it when we did saved us both a lot of heartbreak. If things had continued the way they had been going toward the end of our relationship I truly believe it would have ruined any chance we had at a friendship. There are two things I've taken away from our breakup: 1) I valued our friendship more than our relationship. Meaning losing you as my best friend would have hurt more than losing you as my boyfriend. 2) You've grown so much since we've met. I truly believe you would not have been able to handle the way you ended our relationship if we had been together freshman year. You were honest, you were open but more importantly you made sure that we were okay and that I was okay.
It's no secret that I don't handle bad news well. So when we broke up and you were talking, I didn't say anything. I just let you talk. Finally, when you got up to leave I let you get halfway across the campus greens before I got up and followed you. The hug we shared and more importantly, the words we shared when I finally caught up to you proved to me that things would be okay. Maybe not right away but eventually.
To the Boy Who is Still my Best Friend:
I thought it would be harder. I really thought it would. That doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt or that I don't cry, because I do. I just understand that it was for the best. That being said, I miss you. I miss my best friend. I miss hanging out and sharing the ideas we come up with while listening to music. I miss talking about things that don't really matter and things that really do matter. I want to be able to hang out and not have things feel awkward. You are one of my closest friends, I just wish it felt like you were. Instead now, I feel like I'm fighting to even get the chance to see you. I believe things will be okay with time.
To the Boy Who Needs to Hear It:
You're amazing. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You deserve the world and I hope the next girl who comes along realizes that. You may have your moments of self doubt but remember that anyone would be lucky to have you. I was extremely lucky that I got to be with you for as long as I was. Don't ever settle, you deserve so much and one day you'll get that. I know things aren't 100 percent clear for you right now but they will be. Just keep your head up and one day you'll become as legendary as you're meant to be.
And, finally:
To the Girl Who Comes Along Next:
You better realize he's the best thing that will ever happen to you. You also better accept that I'm going to be around because he's my best friend and he's not a guy who pushes his friends to the side for a girl. He has a kind heart once you get past the walls he has built for himself. Be patient and be kind with him and I promise he'll do the same for you.
