To my unrequited love,
You're driving me crazy.
You're probably not even doing it on purpose, but the thought of you has been keeping me up at night. I can't focus on anything but you – your laugh, your smile, your voice, all of it. You'll probably never read this or even realize that you're the one I'm writing this for, but I need to get some things off my chest.
It's not easy being around you.
Admittedly, it's kind of my fault because I actively seek to see you, but I can't help it. You're like a door labeled "Do Not Open," and all I wanna do is get on the other side of that door.
I feel like the main character of a cheesy rom-com,
trying to get the man of my dreams to fall in love with me, but I'm stuck in the first half of the movie where my love life is unsuccessful and lonely AF.
I've worked a little harder on my makeup and changed my outfit 15 times a day,
in the hopes that you'll notice me. I've sat by my phone for days on end, waiting for a text back or a cute Snapchat or a "like" on my most recent Instagram post, just to know you were thinking about me... but my phone remains silent.
I'm kicking myself so hard for letting you put me through this,
but I would never blame you. It's not your fault that you don't feel the same way. At the same time, it's not my fault either. I can't help that I feel this way, no matter how hard I try to fight it. Feelings are weird. Having no control over this is hard to accept, and quite frankly, it sucks.
But I won't feel sorry for myself.
Sure, you possess all of my favorite qualities in a guy, but, of the billions of other people on this planet, I can definitely find them in someone else. I'm tired of these constant efforts and getting nothing back. Don't worry, though – I'm sure this will, in no way, affect you. You probably have a bunch of other girls wrapped around your finger, just like you had me.
I deserve more than this.
I deserve a guy that will realize what he has in front of him and that will value me and all that I have to offer. I shouldn't be crying over anyone, especially a guy that doesn't even notice me. I'm better than that.
I hope you find what you're looking for.
Clearly, I couldn't give it to you. However, I do think that you deserve the best your life has to offer you. I'm sorry that couldn't be me. I hope that she makes you laugh, that she appreciates your smile and that she likes to hold your hand.
I believe that everything happens for a reason.
I know we didn't meet by accident. I'm glad to know you, and I thank you for being the guy that made me realize that I should never settle for just anyone.
Sincerely,
The girl that's getting over you
