Have you ever had someone so close to you pass away? And after that tragic moment you just don't know what to do with yourself because that person made such an impact on your life? Well, I have. My grandpa was my best friend. Someone who I went to for everything. Whether it was to wake me up for school or to go to the doctors or just to talk. He was my go to. Losing him hit me badly and it changed my life drastically. I had this bond with him that is hard to understand but him and I could comprehend it perfectly.I think that is why once he passed away I felt there was a gap in my heart but I knew he was still watching over me, as my guardian angel.
I want to thank you for everything. You have had an influence on me that is visible to everyone you knew. I want to thank you for all the hugs and kisses you gave me when I got home from school. You living with us was the best 15 years because I never felt alone because you were always just a room away from me.
It took me a long time to be okay with your passing. I wish you had been there for my sweet sixteen or my prom but I know you saw it all. I had puffy eyes for a long time, but I eventually got used to you being with me in spirit, not physically. It scared me when I thought I forgot what your cologne smelled like, but I remember by getting one of your old NASCAR sweatshirts and I feel at ease again. With the sweatshirt on and your heart shaped earn next to my bed, sleepless nights disappeared.
I hope I am making you proud, that is something I think about every day. I wish we would've had more time together, but God works in mysterious ways. I know I will see you again one day and it will feel like you never left us, but until then I will continue to live life just like you taught me to.
Thank you guardian angel for the many laughs, hugs, and memories. They are something I will hold dear to my heart and things i will cherish and share with my own family. I will always think of you and I may shed a tear time to time but I will always know you are protecting me and watching over me just like you did while you were here with me.
I love you so much Poppa, see you soon.