“You are with me every minute of every hour of everyday. Every minute without you is a minute without air, gravity and life. You are rarely absent from my mind, and if you are absent, for the briefest moment, my mind drains into a pit of loneliness and torture.”

Nothing could ever take the place of your thoughtful eyes, beautiful smile and comforting laugh. To be honest, there is only one question left to ask. Why? Why did you have to leave me here? Why couldn’t you just stay with me, even for another day, hour or minute longer? Why didn’t I get everything out that I needed to say to you? Why didn’t I ever get any closure? Just why? That’s all the words I can even manage to say. These words will never fully be able to explain the hurt and the loss that I feel from you leaving this cruel and unkind world. This place doesn’t even seem to feel the same now that you’re gone. When you passed, you took every beautiful thing with you. The birds don’t sing, the water doesn’t flow freely, and the children don’t laugh and play. Every simple beauty I’ve ever known is nothing without your presence. Everything died with you that day, even a little piece of me.

Out of everyone who has left me in this long journey we call life, yours is the only one I can’t seem to handle. You’re the only one who ever latched onto my heart and my soul, and I knew for sure that you wouldn’t leave me, at least by your own choice. The pain is too real for most to even fathom. It isn’t fair that you had to go way before your time, but I guess that just wasn’t my decision to make. The only thing I have left to comfort me with the loss of losing you is my memories. The thoughts of when you were just a mere child, when you greeted me with that smile that could have brightened up even the darkest of days, and the times that you reminded me of how strong I was, even when I felt like I was nothing. These thoughts and memories sometimes trick me into thinking you’re still here, but that’s okay. These comforting lies are better than the hard truth of having to face that you’re no longer here with me. These memories, no matter how hard they are to bear sometimes, keep me going. Even in death, you are my motivator and my biggest fan. Every day, I remind myself of how proud you would be of me for overcoming all the things that had brought me down, and that’s enough to keep pushing me. There’s no words to describe how thankful I am to have had you in my life, even for the limited time we had together. This may have been a goodbye here on Earth, but it isn’t over. This is simply a “see you later.”