I want to start out by saying, I don't hate you..I don't think I could ever truly hate you. I'm not used to writing letters so this might go all over the place (sorry in advance). Starting out, from the moment I sent you a DM on instagram on May 4th 2020 to meeting in person just a few days later on May 11th, I knew you'd be something so special to me. We met when I was 21 and you were 19... It was weird for me, the night we met felt like we had known one another our whole entire lives like nothing was awkward or weird and it just felt so natural. We have a very long past and I don't regret any of it, from boat trips, to Vegas, to hanging out at my house and sneaking you in, to walks with Boomer and donatos dates with mareo and Jenna, to "slowww kissy", to loving on Jayla, to serving the lord together..I could go on..and on...and on...but you remember the same memories i'm sure.

I'm pretty sure I caught feelings way quicker than anticipated but that was okay. We became best friends..we told each other a lot and I helped you through a heartbreak..although it was hard for me to have feelings for you and see you broken over another girl, I didn't care, I liked you and I wanted to put my feelings aside and pick up those broken pieces and be a friend. I've truly never let go of you, all we've been through and I've still waited hoping one day you'd be mine. From texting to ft calls, to fb messaging and cash app..we've always kept in touch. I finally one day, was able to call you mine. I remember that day like it was yesterday..(September 25th 2021) and not 9 months ago..I was smiling ear to ear and I was beyond filled with joy. That girl who kept her guard up for 22 years of her life, learned to love herself and get herself ready to love the first guy who came into her life, finally had someone. We know the in between and all the negative stuff we have dealt with, but I want this to be a positive letter so one day when we look back we can smile and remember the good with each other. When my kids ask, you'll be the guy I tell them about and I won't leave out a detail.

Right now, we both might be hurting and that's okay because we loved each other and I truly thought you were the one. I remember the first time we said "I love you", you were in Vegas October 12 2021 and I was at home in bed, God I wish we could go back. I just want to thank you, for changing and becoming the perfect loyal man to me, although we made a promise with those rings, it was broken. I wasn't perfect and I know I made my mistakes and for that I am so deeply sorry. Thank you for everything, Q. I hope I understand why this all happened and why God did all of this but for now I just pray. I wish you nothing but the absolute best in this life. From love, to DJing, to your career. Life without one another will be weird one day when that happens, from knowing you and talking pretty consistently for two years, to knowing one day we may never hurts.

But I trust God with my life and I know he will not let US down. Again, thank you and thank you for loving my niece like she was your niece. One day, I can't wait to show her the memories of you guys, those I will cherish forever. I will never forget you , you were my first love and even if that love fades, I will still always have love for you. Take care of yourself and reach out if you ever need someone to listen.

until next time,

Mace