Our friendship was one of a kind. We laughed so hard until our stomachs hurt and we couldn’t breathe. So many great, amazing memories we made. Ill always be grateful to you because you helped make me who i am today but as time went on. I realized our lives were going down separate paths. I tried to stop it and i tried to hold on but I couldn’t. Our friendship was dying faster than i could grasp.

I want you to know i do not hate you, i hate how our friendship went to inseparable to separable. Before we knew it our once great conversations became into short sentences. Well yours did. I fought and i fought. I looked for ways to build a friendship, found things we enjoyed but when i did. You would get distant about it all of a sudden. I let it slide for awhile because i thought you were just busy because that was always your excuse. But time went on and i asked you why? And you claimed that i took it over and pretty much made you not enjoy it which made no sense to me. For years my family and my other friends told me i should walk away and you are not my friend but i told them they were wrong, yet they ended up being right.

I let you make me believe that they were wrong. Because then you would all of a sudden be my friend for awhile and then it happened again and i got to believing that i was all in my head. It wasn’t. You made me feel like i was crazy and that the reason our friendship fell apart was all because of me when it was also you. You never took blame for anything and only time i got sorry is when i had to ask for it but by then your apology meant nothing.

I always supported you and pushed you to take chances and to be better, but when i needed it, i never got it. When i wanted to move up in my job i never got any of it, when i found something i loved to do. You made me feel guilty for it bc you loved it too but stopped because of me apparently. You couldn’t handle that i was happy. Most of our friendship i was down in life and always complaining but once i stopped, you got distant and again i let you make me believe it was all in my head.

You drained me.. i gave you chance after chance to take some responsibility and you never would because you could never handle being wrong. You were so self absorbed and too prideful you couldn’t. You made our friendship seem like a toy you put up when you get bored with it. You only wanted to be my friend when it was on your terms.

You weren’t all bad, you were their for me when my life flashed before my eyes but when i got better. You stopped caring. You enjoyed the fact i needed you but when I didn’t. You stopped needing me. Every time you got in a new relationship I suddenly became unimportant to you until your new relationship ended and then i was important to you again and all of a sudden needed me.

When things were good, they were really good. But when it got bad, they got really bad. Id tell you how i felt about something you did and you would turn it around and make it all about me and made me feel guilty. I apologized a lot and took the blame for literally everything that went wrong. I thought it was normal and i was the bad friend, but I wasn’t.

I am so glad that my eyes finally opened and I realized I don’t need you and that I deserve a way better friend than you. I see now how toxic you were to my life, but i hope you are doing well and everything you want in life becomes yours. Even though our friendship didn’t go as planned and you didn’t appreciate our friendship, i did. Every day. I fought until I couldn’t anymore and i hope that you are doing okay and you are happy. I walked away for my happiness. Thank you for all the great memories that will live forever.

From, your once was, best friend