I had always wholeheartedly believed that everyone would fall in love at any point in their life. However, for me I had my life planned out page by page in my book and falling in love was not until a way later chapter. I wasn't ready to fall in love when I did and I didn't even know I had fallen in love until you were already gone. Sometimes, love is gently placed in the palm of our hands, our hands that have yet to touch the world, and we drop it.

To me, I have always viewed dating as trial and error. Most of the guys I wasted my time on were error. I had an imagine of the person for me.The image of you looking at me still burns in the back of my mind. You looked at me with fire in your eyes and when I caught you you just smiled and you always waited until I looked away first before you took your eyes off of me. You were kind and patient with everyone you came in contact with. You are the one who got away.

At eighteen I did one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life and I walked away from you. And I didn’t walk away because you hurt me or because I didn’t feel the same way you felt about me, I walked away because I had to live my life. I am young and I was too afraid to find the balance between living my life and loving you. However, what I did not know, and found out long after you were gone, is that living my life consisted of loving you.

I got over my arrogance and came to the realization that I had fallen, hit a few rocks on the way down, in love with you. I fell in love with the way you looked at me like I was an angel God had placed on this earth specifically for you. I had fallen in love with your touch which made me feel like I was melting over and over again. I was a broken girl who viewed herself as just that and I was sure that I would never be capable of falling in love until you proved to me otherwise. Most importantly, I had fallen in love with the way you learned to forgive me for hurting you. However, you built up a wall too high for me to ever break again and I will live with the decision I made to walk away from you for the rest of my life.

I was too young and naive to be given the great pleasure of love. I took it for granted and I had to watch as he gave his love to someone else as I had his buried within me. He will always be the one who got away.