All she wants is to be happy again ..
Just once ...
She tries to fool herself to think she's happy but God knows she's not ...
She's so confused and doesn't know what to do ..
She hasn't been truly happy in a long time ...
Yeah she laughs and smiles all the time but look closely and you might see the way she pauses and looks away...
You can almost see the way she forces the laugh and smile..
But if you look away and miss one second you will miss it ....
She has so much going on...
Her own mind is killing her daily ....
All the things going on makes her even worse ...
She hides everything so well...
People ask her what's wrong she just blames it on being "tired" and just smiles...
She doesn't tell anyone what's truly wrong because she doesn't want people to worry about her because everyone has their own problems to worry about ....
It's just easier to say she's "tired" then to explain everything...
Because sometimes she doesn't even know what's wrong ...
She tries to forget everything and not think about things ...
She tries to numb herself ...
But she always has this empty feeling ...
She feels her heartbreaking daily ...
It's getting really hard again ....
She doesn't think she can handle it anymore ....
She's so exhausted and can't take it anymore !



















