What thoughts does a junior have when they're still unsure of their major? I can't speak for all, but I can speak for one (me). I admire those who around me who knew from day one what they wanted to do and stuck with it. I went into my new major thinking, "this is something I can do, this is something that seems interesting." However, I was not thinking, "WOW! I REALLY WANT TO BE THIS WHEN I GROW UP. "

My current major is secondary Education in English and Chinese. I am constantly in awe of the people around me who sincerely care about their majors and are looking forward to teaching in schools in the future. Me? I'm terrified. In my English classes, fellow peers raises their hands and quote insightful parts from books I've never heard before. I love to read books, but I feel like I haven't read nearly enough to teach an English class (though, if one was to measure content knowledge by YouTube videos, I could probably give my students a run for their money).

With Chinese, I initially thought my Chinese was passable and, with some more practice, I could probably teach Chinese. However, after recently observing a Mandarin Chinese program in a middle school classroom, I felt simultaneously impressed and intimidated. In my dark thoughts, I worry that I'll be that one teacher that students constantly correct for a year (at least, I hope only for a year; otherwise I'd probably be fired).

I don't even know if I really want to be a teacher. On the one hand, I do. However, a lifetime seems like a long commitment. If I'm being perfectly honest, I'm just really lost at this point. I came into college thinking I would never follow the paths of my parents. Now, ironically, my track of education with English and Chinese is almost the spitting-college-degree image of my mother's degree (with her first degrees in English Language and Literature and her degree after in TESOL, Teachers of English for Speakers of Other Languages).

Although I like it so far, I am slightly overwhelmed by what lays before me. I'm hopeful nonetheless. For all the high schoolers, college students, and people out of school who are seemingly as lost as I am, know that there is a plan laid out for us, and we must live each day doing the best we can (I'm still not giving up my YouTube though.)