Death isn't my favorite thing to talk about, nor do I think it's anyone's, but sometimes it has to be, especially now that I see it happening more often. I don't know what it is, I'll never understand why it happens, but it's inevitable that some people will die young. I don't think it's fair, but who am I to say that? I've never had a friend taken from me. I can't say I know how it feels because I don't. To all the girls who have lost a friend, this is for you.
I don't know how you do it. My heart aches for you, but you are so strong. I believe that a person is still with you even if they're not physically present, that their spirit is alive. No matter what happens, that person is a part of you forever. Maybe it was your soulmate, lifelong best friend, college roommate or sibling, either way, you of all people know how grateful you were to have them in your life at all. People like me, on the outside of the pain, grief and loss, will never have that chance. I will never get to experience how amazing this person was. I do know how much they love you and how much you love them. That's just something a friend always knows without it being said. I never take my best friends for granted and I never will. Not knowing that one day, they could be gone. I cry every time I hear of people my age passing away from accidents or cancer, whatever it may be because I know that a best friend somewhere is mourning. That person that you could tell anything to, that you chose to be a part of your family. I wish I could hug you and hold you and let you cry for as long as you need to, take away your pain and bring them back to you; but you are stronger than you'll ever realize.
Your best friend knows that you can survive without them, even if it doesn't seem that way. Your best friend loves you and needs you to be strong without her, I can promise you that. Maybe it doesn't seem like getting up and surviving is worth it, but you won't know until you do it. They'll be right beside you, in your heart and looking down at you, smiling because they're so proud to have had you as their best friend.
