We have just hit the six week mark in the semester, and although I have had my hard days in class some of my classes almost seem too easy, plus I am also just finishing up my general education credits. I recently changed my major to public relations and some days I question if that was the right decision. Although I know I will love my job one day, it is just that right now in this moment I am questioning if this is what I want.

I think the reason that my classes seem somewhat easy is the fact that they are the subjects I am good at, since they are not science or math classes. But it still makes me wonder if there is something that I could be better at, or if I should be challenging myself with something harder. When I think about challenging myself though I remember how badly I did in biology last year and wonder if I would want to put myself through that again. Everyday I question if I should even be going to school or if I should just be a nanny all the time instead of just for the summer. But then I realize that my family and closest friends would probably kill me if I dropped out. So then I think about what else I could do at school, but then I realize that I am a person who is better at writing and reading and there is not always a whole lot you are able to do with that. Basically, I go through this conversation with myself in my head everyday. By the end, I start thinking about if I am just taking the easy way out of school with my major because it is easy but also maybe other people would have a hard time with all the writing courses I have to take.

I just wish there was a way for me to have all the answers, not for the test, but for when I start to question myself. For the times that I am unsure of the things that I want to do for the rest of my life. I now realize that when I think about the long term future, I am very excited to see where public relations will take me with my life. So, if you are EVER questioning if this is really what you want to do, just take a step back and look at all your options. Look at where you have come from that has made you choose this path in life, think about all the places you will go later in life because of what you want to do right now. It is the moments like this that I stop and think, that I realize this really is what I want to do.