I don't mean to write this to scare you off or make you feel uncomfortable. I mean to write this as a warning for what may partake in the next following months. I want you to know from deep within my soul, that I intend on being with you and making you happy. What I also want you to know is if this may end, I want you to be able to see how much I care for you despite the lack of loved I have received from any man in my life. I am sure you remember me telling you about my issues, not all at once but sooner rather than later. I told you briefly about my daddy and step-dad issues. I have told you about my struggles against my anxiety and depression. I vent to you about my shitty days and tell you stories about my good ones. Obviously you listened and accepted my pasts and my issues, which is one of the many reasons as to why I think I'm falling in love with you.

I must admit, I'm scared. Scared beyond belief. I have searched for someone to love and give my all to. I give my love easily but my trust is another story. I want you to understand that I have been through heartbreak and I understand you have, too. I want you to be able to open up to me eventually and realize I am much different from these girls you've once had. I know I am worthy of being loved and I want you to know I want your love.

I think I'm falling in love with you, for a the little things that you do. I love coming home, your arms, and kissing your soft lips. I love watching your chocolate brown eyes as the flicker of the television reflect back in them. I love that you know almost every line to every episode of Family Guy. I love the way your eyes close the slightest while you tilt your head back laughing. I love they way you snuggle up to me while im sitting on the edge of your bed. I love them way your arms wrap around me like your a snake strangling its prey. But I hope I'm not your prey that you leave breathless. I pray that I am the soul that links with yours and shows you love is nothing to be afraid of as you show me trust still at value for kids our age. I want you to know I cherish everything you do for me, from rubbing my back to making sure I get my protein shakes in.

I mentioned I love hard. I'm going to be clingy, I'm going to be nervous when I see another females name when I see you get a snapchat from them. It's going to take some time for me to get used to someone who won't wipe the slate clean and let me prove that I deserve to be treated like the rare gem I am. I hope you see that I'm not out to hurt you and I wish you would understand you hold what little broken pieces of my heart I have left inside of your hands. I'm your puppet but please don't make me look like a fool. Hold me like a child holds a butterfly and handle me with care. I'm fragile.

If me writing this to you ends up making you want to run, just know the door is open, I suggest leaving soon before you get yourself into something you don't intend on living through. I won't 'expose' you, I won't bash you, I won't throw a brick through your window. I will simply fade away. You'll stop getting snapchats of me on breaking wishing I was with you instead. You'll stop getting texts saying how I love you and how thankful I am for you. You'll replace me, you'll slowly forget about the girl who fell in love with you before she was even ready to. You'll still think about me later in life as your graduating college, or as you find the girl of your dreams not even aware to the fact that I wanted so badly to be her.

Please don't read this and distance yourself. Don't disappear altogether. I didn't want to love you, but now I do and I don't know how to stop it. I'm sorry I think I'm falling in love with you.