Guess you really did it this time, haven't you?
Just when I thought there could be a chance for us –
A chance to explore a possibility I had been wanting for so long,
An idea I had clung onto over the years,
An idea that took a long time to fade out and sink but then had resurfaced just months before –
When the window had opened up after having been closed for years,
One I hoped would stay open until the right enough time would come for me to take that leap…
That chance has just been diminished by just one glance of a Facebook update:
An update that contains the words "in a relationship" in that order,
The kind of update one would not expect from a casual scroll through their timeline.
I really thought the window would stay open for much longer,
But I had not realized it was open until I had prodded you,
And I had only done so after the change you made in your photo.
Even if the difference were only a couple months before I had known,
I did not expect you to move on with someone new that quickly,
Especially during a time when we all need to be farther in distance than ever before.
I also couldn't help but notice your new beau was closer to us than I had thought,
Thrown off by the unfamiliar name she bears:
Just a grade year under us during our time in high school,
And just one year her predecessor's senior –
Who had been by your side for almost seven years –
Facts I double-checked by the class photo pages within our yearbook.
It would be too little to say I was only shocked at coming across such news,
But rather that mixed with hurt and ultimately resigned,
Because I can't keep waiting for an idea to happen only for it to stay just that within me.