To everyone who "seems" to have their life together, bravo to you!

I am not one of those people.

I was someone who went into college declaring a major right away, thinking that by doing that, I would start to get a grasp on what I am doing with my life.

I was wrong about that.

I have no idea what I am doing with my life and I have learned that that's okay. Honestly, I prefer it to be this way. I don't have a dream job, I don't have a grand plan, I don't have specific companies I want to end up working for, I don't know where I want to end up living after college, I know what I want to major in, but that could always change and I don't know what I want to minor in yet, and I don't have specific plans for after college, let alone specific plans for even tomorrow or next week.

I DO know what I enjoy doing, and I DO know what and who I value in my life. Although I don't "have my life together" and sometimes wish I had more of a plan, I am starting to appreciate the state of "not knowing." Not knowing exactly what I want can lead to a lot of confusion, but it also leads me to realize that my options are truly endless. This life is MINE and I don't always need to know whats going to happen or have a plan for what I want to happen. Life is going to take its course whether or not I plan for it.

Sometimes I wish that I knew what I wanted and had great expectations for specific things. Sometimes I wish I had more of a plan because it would maybe save me a lot of confusion.

You can plan all you want for the future, but things happen in life and a lot of the times, plans change. It is awesome to have expectations and big plans and to know what you want your life to look like, but don't feel ashamed if you don't know what you want your life to look like yet.

Either way, things will more than likely go differently than you expected them to. You can't plan for everything.

I am happy that I get to take each day as it comes and choose what I want in the moment. I am happy that I get to slowly learn what I want. It may not be the easier route, considering I do get jealous of people who have always known they have wanted to be a doctor, or a teacher or people who have always known that they want to live in the mountains or in their hometown forever. But it is a route that I am learning to love.

I love the unknown.

I love the way my life is so unpredicatble.

I love them mystery.

I love the slow process of realizing the things I want.

Whether you have all these plans and know what you want, or you don't know yet, things WILL eventually fall into place. Things will happen that you can't prepare yourself for. Things will happen that you didn't want to happen and things will happen that you will become so grateful for. Whether these things are the things you hoped and planned for or not, they will happen.

So if you don't quite know what you're doing with your life yet, it's okay.