The ultimate heartbreak hits when the blanket of grief becomes so heavy we have no choice but to fall to our knees. We question our faith; we ask God why he would take our loved one away.
We get angry.
We yell.
We cry uncontrollable sobs while our bodies convulse, trying to expel the despair we feel deep.
Grief is a word that sounds exactly how it feels: empty, lost, and desperate while at the same time heavy, tired, and depressed.
We feel everything and we feel nothing at the same time.
We don’t know why this is the way it is, but it is the worst feeling we, as humans, can ever experience.
Loss is something that will eventually and unfortunately touch us all.
It will rock us, shake us, break us, and leave us feeling useless from having no control.
This is why we make sure the flower arrangements are made to perfection; the In Memory Of cards represent the ones we adore with painstaking accuracy; the music is chosen with care; the gathering after is a celebration of their life because we know they wouldn't want it any other way. We need something to control to try and alleviate some of the deep-seated agony we feel.
When we lose someone we love, we strive to find answers.
Why him?
Why her?
Why now?
Why?
Why?
Why?
We will spend all of our time thinking about it, obsessing over it, wondering why God would take our precious ones away from us.
Consumed.
Haunted.
Numb.
Lost.
We don’t understand God’s plan and this makes us frustrated beyond belief.
But it is in times like this that we must channel our faith in God to believe that He does everything with reason.
We must hold on to the knowledge that the one we love is in a far better place than us.
Gone from Earth does not mean that they are gone.
They are with us when we look up at the sky.
They are with us when the wind blows.
They are with us when we laugh.
They are with us when we cry.
They will be with us until our end and will be waiting to take our hand when we make it to those pearly gates.
From grief, we learn to never take our loved ones for granted.
Appreciate the little, every day things we find to be so mundane and ordinary.
Forgive and love unconditionally, always living and never just existing.
