This past week was probably best explained with the children's book, Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day. I would love to say that I got back from fall break ready to conquer the week and refreshed. That was not the case. At all. In fact, I spent more time tearing up, ignoring responsibilities, and complaining. It's funny that my week ended up like this because I had been planning on talking about complaining and finding the good in everything. Then I had my Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Week. Here I thought I could be all cool and tell you all the great ways to not complain, but I spent the entire week complaining and whining and not doing any of the things I was planning on advising. So, I am still going to talk about complaining, but I am not going to advise I am just going to lowkey complain and try to get over it.
You see I went into fall break without any plan for my school work and my goal was to be lazy. Well, when you are a #collegestudent you kind of have to do things. So, I jumped out of break with a quiz due, two reading reports, and exam, all the meetings, a piano midterm, a research proposal introduction, an interview, and no drive to do anything. I had (have) no motivation to do anything, but everything needed to be accomplished this week. I wanted to spend time with everybody and still somehow do work that would help me get a 4.0. So, being the great student I am I decided to be social and pray that somehow 24 hours would turn into 48 and allow me to get it all done.
I did get it all done. However, I am exhausted, drained, still behind, and struggling to find the silver lining. I spent all Sunday morning crying because I am tired, crying because I was going to church alone, crying because I am confused about life, and crying because I am crying and it is ridiculous. I have been putting up this front that I can #slay my stuff, but man oh man all of my responsibilities are slaying me. I have had a distressed look on my face and lying through my teeth that I am doing perfectly fine. I am not.
It is so easy to tell others to look for the positive in everything. It is easy to try and only look at the good things, because they are there. However, it is important to remember that there are the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad things. They will pile up and even if you try to ignore them they will come tumbling out ready to drown you.
With all of my complaining and emotional thoughts out of the way I have realized something. Well, Alexander's Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day reminded me something. Everybody has those days, weeks, months, or years. The thing that can change it is how much time you dwell on it, if you keep it to yourself, and if you will allow yourself to cry and then move forward. So, feel free to complain for a bit, but don't allow that to be all that you do.
