Maybe no one cares at all, maybe your ex is waist deep in someone else’s soul right now and maybe their eyes don’t search for yours in a crowded room anymore and my heart is screaming in spite of it all
That doesn’t mean it doesn’t mean anything
It meant the world to me but it’s time to let it go
Because I’m tired of always being the one who loves wholeheartedly while the other only gives pieces of themselves
Just enough to keep me coming back for more, hoping one day to look down and see your whole heart in my hands
But I’ll never know what that’s like
I can feel our eternity unfolding in an alternate universe where you loved me the same
But I am stuck in this reality
The one where I have to watch you lose interest while I grow more and more desperate to keep you
I ended up leaving, half because I was scared you were going to leave me, and half because it was a last ditch effort to make you realize what you lost
All you realized is that you don’t need me
I’ve been sinking so long, I don’t know what solid ground feels like
I wasn’t in love until I was and it was too late
I just want to be able to sleep without waking up at 4 am with my heart aching and my throat constricting
The words you told me spinning around my head, wrapping around my brain and making it gasp for space
Well, it’s been a month, and
Now I can’t even picture how your fingers ever intertwined with mine
It still hurts to be replaced, but it’s no longer a burning flame, rather a dull ache
My brain doesn’t scream your name every day anymore
it’s no longer our song anymore
It’s just a song
And you’re just a person who didn’t respect me
Maybe the saddest thing is the forgetting, because you once meant everything to me
But now you’re just a drop in my endless ocean
Your scars made me who I am today, but I no longer dwell on your face
It doesn’t matter anymore how it happened, but it did, and it has been left in the past where it belongs
You will never get to be a part of my universe again, and I’m proud to say I made it
It gets better, every day I forget you a little bit more
It’s not a fairytale ending, but it will do
It means that I’m able to see my future without you
My heart will go on,
Goodnight
