Outsider, I used to be that, wait I still am that, but I'm that outsider that is living life and moving forward with my life. I never saw my life moving forward. I couldn't see anything besides living at my moms and staying there forever, and yet I feel that way sometimes still, she won't let me do more things that would help me out in the long run. I know it's silly to say she will not let me do anything. But sadly it's true. I don't have a car and I only have a permit but no one will teach me how to drive. My friends and family are like you can just take the test and then be on your way, but honest I don't wanna be like every person out there that don't know how to drive on the main road. But even when I ask people don't wanna help me out when I have helped them out more times then they can count. The other thing is I have a learning disability but my mom treats it as I can't do anything.....I am a lot smarter than you think, I'm more independent more then most people that have it. So I try to do something to better my life but I get held back, Like always.....Then I get treated differently so much it's not even funny.
Now it's not bad living at my mom's I don't have to pay rent I just have to pay my cell phone and gas money to get places. But when I ask for a ride somewhere they get upset that I am asking this, well if they would teach me how to drive then I wouldn't be asking them I would be getting the car from them. So it's 2017 now, I'm sick of living here with my mom, and not having things how they should be since I don't get treated right here. I got a new job, that has more hours and it's more pay, it was time to change my life to get myself out of the place I am with, it's sad to leave my friends at my work now but I know it will be better for me no matter what. Even josh has told me it will be better for me and for us with us trying to move out and getting our lives together. I never was able to look forward in my life until I met him, he has changed me so much for the better and I am more ready to get my life started with him. we both have come along away with our lives and I am proud of him as much as he is with me. I know we will able to do this for ourselves.
Outsider, I am still that, I think I will always be that outsider that says around herself and stays away but I'm going to be that one outsider that makes it good in life.
