Hey you,
It is okay. It is okay not to miss walking the same halls and seeing the same faces every day. It is okay to not miss all of the mandatory events that never helped you "improve your future." It is okay not to talk to the kids you graduated with. I know you are confused as to why so many people still only hang out with their high school friends. I know you look at all of those people and think, "graduation day was the best day of my life because I was finally able to start figuring out the person I will become." I know you are finally finding your people and your place and I am so happy for you. High school was only good to some people and those people are sure to let everyone know, so now it is your turn to let everyone know that this is your time. They will see that peaking in high school probably was not the best thing, but they can't take it back now, so oh well. It is good that you don't drive home every weekend to go to high school sporting events or to meet up with people you hung out with in your "glory days." You are shaping your life more now that you are actually living life on your own and that it is something you should be so proud of. You don't have to miss high school. You don't have to always try to relive those days. If they weren't your "glory days" then good. You can make another chapter of your life those "glory days." You have time to make memories, so it is okay if those four years are not all you think about. You might be jealous of all the college kids who go home and have people to hang out with whenever they want, but when you are at college you have your real people. The people you will forever cherish and consider the most amazing people you know.
The simple fact is: high school was not your place. College might not be it quite yet, either, but don't you worry, because you will find your place soon enough. When you do, it will be a joyous occasion and everything will finally seem right. Things will start to make a tad bit more sense and you will realize that all the years you waited to have your moment were worth every second. All the questions you asked as to why you felt so much joy leaving high school when everyone else was falling to pieces will finally have answers. It is okay that high school was not your place and it is okay not to miss it. If people judge you for it, let them because it isn't their life to live. So what if you don't miss it? So what if you don't want the best part of your life to be when you could barley even drive? You are out of high school now. You aren't forced to be friends with certain people because you see them every single day, so make your life now a life that you love.
Sincerely,
I don't miss it either.
