You weren't there when I needed you. You never were. Millions of times I wanted to come to you but you only ignored me. I tried numerous times to communicate with you but nothing ever worked. I told you what I wanted from you but you were never that. I painted the entire picture of what could've been but it never made sense to you.
You took me for granted. When others could have seen my light and my potential, you left me in the dark, away from the surface. You wrecked me. You made me feel like everything was and always will be my fault but it's not. You ruined me for everybody else. Friends and family saw I wasn't who I used to be. I hid in solitude away from it all. You did this to me.
You let me down. I can never forgive you for what you've done to me. I will never be the same. I don't know what it is like to be happy anymore. I'm neutral. Never completely happy, never fully sad. I stay busy so it doesn't bother me. But the moment I'm through with my tasks, how you betrayed me is always the first thing to come to mind.
To those who can relate, reach out for help. For no one will hear your cry. They'll think your life is perfect but really you feel as if you're about to die. You don't care about anything. You have no passions or desires anymore. You always think everyone will let you down. But I promise you, they won't. There is a happy place in this cruel, evil world. You just have to dig deep enough and find it. I pray that anyone who reads this and can relate will find comfort knowing you're worth it all and you will live and breathe to see another day, and no one else will let you down unless you let them.
