I’m the girl that cares too much. The girl that loves with everything that she has. It is both a blessing and a curse. It’s an amazing quality to have in friendships. Your friends know that you’ll always be there for them, no matter what. They can come to you with anything. You’ll listen and never judge. You love them and you’ll protect them no matter what. I will drop everything for you. No matter what time it is, and with no questions asked. It is really easy to get hurt this way. I trust completely and in this day and age that will get you hurt faster then anything.
I’ve been used and taken advantage if many times before. The people that I thought I could trust with life turned out to be the people that took advantage if me the worst. Because of this, the girls that love too easily and care too much are most of the time the most cautious. We learn to not let anyone in, and when we do we don't rush into things. When it comes to romance, it’s one of the hardest things. In every romantic relationship there is one person that cares more than the other, and unfortunately that is always me.
Now a days the concept of dating is completely different from that of our parents. Boys no longer ask you out on proper dates. Netflix and chill has become the normal thing to do. It is like a competition to see who can show the least interest. Showing feelings is a death sentence, and no body ever says what they really mean anymore. God forbid you tell someone how you actually feel. If people were more honest with each other, and didn't try to hide who they are, dating would be so much better. Being the girl that cares too much is hard when you have to play guessing games, and mind games, and every kind of game in between. The time of defining relationships has come to an end where almost every guy I meet just wants to end up in your pants and then promptly leave. We’re supposed to act like this doesn’t bother us, and just move on.
I am sick and tired of society saying that this is okay. I want to go back to the days when a man asked you to go steady with him. I want that epic romance where I don't have to second guess every little thing. I want to know that the man I’m with is going to be with wants me just as much as I want him. I want honesty and openness, and you should too. What made society accept this as the new normal? When did it start being okay to act like nothing bothered you? When did the words “I have a boyfriend” become not enough?
I love with everything I have and more. It is a double edged sword that can be both wondrous and disastrous. You give your entire heart and self to the people that mean the most to you. You are the person that everyone knows they can come to. You harbor everyones secrets. It’s okay to be the girl that cares too much. You are not alone.
