Many, like myself, picture their future to be as bright as humanly possible. Some people strive to do as much as they can as students, hoping to go into their chosen career paths with enough experience to get any job they please. Others expect to be handed their career on a silver platter. Thankfully, I am not one of those people. But strangely, sometimes I wish I was. Hear me out. I'll explain.
If you understand the struggle of being a student constantly trying to do as many extracurriculars as possible as well as keeping your grades up to sub-par, you're half way to understanding where I'm coming from. Honestly, it's not the school part that's the problem. I overflow myself with outside activities.
I love everything I do outside of school; they are all part of my passion—radio and the world of media. Saying yes to these activities isn't hard. I try my hardest to take every opportunity possible. And usually yes, these opportunities all come with positive effects in my life (well, most of the time, at least).
But like most things, these things take time. Interviewing people takes time, editing audio, reviewing scripts, writing articles, creating hour long segments, all takes time. And how much time do we really have?
Even when I actually have time to sit down and do whatever I want, my mind is constantly running. "Are you missing a deadline? Don't forget to email so-and-so before 8 p.m. Meeting at 4 p.m. This is due this date."
Some people don't understand how my mind works—a never-ending cycle that has the power to drag me to the ground and toss me. It's a broken computer planner with constant dings, constantly reminding me of what is going on at each second, and what will be going on throughout the next 10.
I am unable to relax.
Do you know what it's like to feel that you brain is constantly on the clock?
And I guess I was so used to my mind functioning this way that I thought the constant stress was just a fact of life; that everyone feels this way at all times.
And imagine the things I could create if I wasn't so high-strung all the time—that'd be so swell.
Honestly, no matter how much time I put in, or how many events I plan, scripts I look through, time spent on air....I don't think I'll be able to go anywhere in life if I don't learn to relax more.
"The key to success is to allow yourself to relax," my boyfriend said to me, probably not noticing how much that sentence was going to impact my life.
I know it's going to take time to break my ways of piling on the projects, but I'm going to strive to aim for true success as of right now: succeeding in life, but also enjoying it. Because life is something to enjoy.
