Ugh, it's happening again.

I feel hot inside but if I feel my skin, it's cold. After touching my skin for a minute I lose the feeling in my hands. I can't feel anything.

It's just a panic attack, you will get through this. You are not in danger.

I'm not okay. This is not just a panic attack! My heart is racing too fast and I'm definitely going to faint. My brain is so heavy right now I can't think straight. I'm dripping sweat in this sixty-degree room.

Try to distract yourself, think of something... Anything.

Why is this happening? Nothing specific happened. I'm just laying here. Now I try to distract my thoughts but it takes more effort than usual because my brain is scattering. It feels like my head is vibrating and needs to be shut off. I'm losing my hearing. My vision is tunneled. I can barely breathe. I'm going to die. My heart won't slow down.

You're not going to die, this will pass. You have control of your body. Breathe and distract yourself.

But I can't breathe. My hands are trembling and I can't move because my body is so heavy.

Keep trying, you can do it.

No I can't, this won't stop.

You're breathing and you are okay. It is just your body going into panic mode. Slow down, it will be over with soon.

My throat is getting tight. Did I forget to take my medicine today? What if I'm going crazy? What if this never stops? Why did this even happen? Someone help me. Am I drowning? I must be drowning. I'm dying. I must be dying, please somebody help me.

Slow down, you aren't dying.

Everything is spinning, I'm so dizzy. I can't feel my body. I have a headache but I can't feel my head. I can't form thoughts. I must be dying.

It's okay. You're not dying. You are safe. This is only temporary. You're in control. Stay with me. Bring your thoughts back. Bring yourself back, you are strong and I know you can do this.

I take my emergency "as needed" medicine. My vision and hearing comes back. I'm no longer profusely sweating. I can form thoughts again. I can feel my body. My heart rate went down. It was just a panic attack. I was safe this whole time. I wasn't dying. I was strong and I was in control.