Let me just start by saying that it is okay to have that drink that you so desperately deserve. It's okay. So you've made some mistakes, and life looks okay but feels like a deep pit that's more survival than actually living. The first thing I need you to know is that you're going to make more mistakes. One thing I've learned from my years on this planet is that the human race messes up more than I can count.
The mistakes you make do not make up your character. You are not a bad person. I'll say it again. You are not a bad person. Bad people are the kind of people who can take a mistake and think it's okay. People who don't apologize for it. Bad people are people who laugh at other's mistakes. Or give other people hell for their mistakes. Bad people are the girls and boys who snicker and whisper and glare as you walk past. Just apologize when you make a mistake. I promise, it's worth it.
I know it seems hard right now. You feel almost empty, even though your head is filled with thoughts and apologies and strings of what you could've done. Take a deep breath. You're gonna make it out of this. Remember that everything, and I mean everything, is just one more phase closer to being completely happy. This particular phase may be long, or it may surpass in a few days. You never know.
To all of the girls and boys who've messed up before; I know how you feel. I know how it feels. So just apologize, and don't make only the others forgive you. Forgive yourself. Don't stop loving yourself because of some small incident in such a big, big life. You deserve to have that drink. You deserve to laugh. You deserve it all.
