Thank you for not always replying to my phone calls or texts. I remember what it felt like to be rejected when you'd ignore me. You led me to better with relationships with my family and friends because instead of reaching out to you when something new or exciting happened, I was able to share the news with someone who truly cared.
Thank you for showing me that getting what I want isn't always the best choice. I wanted you so badly. I felt like if I didn't see you after a few days, our "relationship" would be over. I wasn't okay with that at first, but as time moved on, so did I. After your constant lies and manipulation of my feelings, I learned that working for something or someone that will never be mine is a waste of time and there are far more important and BETTER things yo worry about.
Thank you for letting my heart feel "empty" I wanted to cry. I wanted to push you, hit you, and scream at you. Yet, you stood cold and heartless when you watched tears of bitterness, anger, and disappointment run down my face. You taught me that even though I felt empty, my heart was never really void. You could never take away the piece of me that was missing in you. The ugly trait of having no emotion towards another's feelings would never consume my life like it had yours.
Thank you for letting me cry. My entire life, I've always kept a stern and meaningless face when someone hurt me. I'd never show "weakness" to anybody, even myself. But all of the times you left me alone then begged me to come over just to relive the same story over and over again caused pain that I hadn't felt before. I cried. And for the first time in my life, I felt good about it. I realized in that moment that bottling up my feelings was pointless. When I cried, I felt as though I was releasing every tension, and bad feeling away.
Thank you for giving me freedom. Without your distance, I could have never known what freedom truly was. There were times I didn't have to respond to anybody. I had no moral obligation to please someone else other than myself. I began to focus on my goals and my dreams. Nothing else mattered, not even my time with you.
Thank you for self discovery. This toxic relationship we held onto for so long led me to find myself. I began to realize what was important to me. I discovered who mattered most.
Last but not least...
Thank you for letting me be alone. Without your ignorance of letting a woman who did nothing but care about you go, I would have never been able to find strength in being alone. I can now say that I am happy without depending on someone else.
