A couple of weeks ago, I was given the opportunity to listen to Jordan Lee speak. For those of you who don’t know, Jordan is Christian blogger and a community-builder. Now, I won’t take credit for the truth that she spoke, nor do I want to. However, so much of what she said resonates with me even after the several weeks that have passed. This tells me that there is still light to be shed.
Being a college student is hard in general, but being a girl in college is even more challenging. The world tells us that we must look or act a certain way to be worth it. In efforts to fit in (or act like we fit in), we as women hide. We hide behind boys, booze, drugs, food, makeup, and friend groups. The list goes on. Our exterior selves look put together and our Instagram pictures say the same. But what about our hearts? They become hard and they become heavy. The baggage that we carry becomes burdensome in that it pours into other aspects of our lives. The longer that we hide, the harder it becomes to be honest with ourselves and others.
Jordan said, “fear is putting our faith in the wrong things.” So, what are you afraid of? Are you afraid of ending up alone? Are you scared of not being successful? Are you constantly comparing yourself to others? You are not alone if you answered yes to any or all of these. By being honest about your struggles, they won’t have as much power over you. With great vulnerability, comes great freedom.
If you’re anything like me, vulnerability is scary and intimidating. Some days, it easier to numb all my feelings and to hide my heart. However, that comfort is only a comfort for so long. People start to notice and you push them away. Vulnerability can often leave us feeling helpless and broken. We don’t want people to see us that way, but what would happen if they did? What if they told you they were going through the same thing and that you could cry together? In my experiences, being vulnerable has brought me some of the most genuine conversations. People won’t have the chance to understand you unless you give them an opportunity.
The good news is that you don’t have to stay broken. You aren’t too far gone and there is a chance for redemption. His name is Jesus and he loves your messy heart. When you feel unlovable, He is pursuing you. When you feel inadequate, He says you are more than enough. In your place of darkness, He is one bright light. Be bold, take courage, and quit hiding.
