Let me start by saying that I know how you are feeling and what you are going through.

I know what it feels like when he tells you that you are not good enough, that there is something wrong with you, and that what is happening is all your fault and I know how worthless that makes you feel.

I know what it is like to feel completely broken. I know what it is like to be pushed around like you mean nothing and are worth nothing. I know what it is like to spend endless nights feeling so alone to the point where you cry yourself to sleep and ask yourself over and over again what is wrong with you and what you did wrong to make him treat you like this.

I know what it is like to have him hurt you so badly that you feel like who you are as a person has been taken from you...like you have lost who you are completely because of what he has done to you and put you through. I know what it is like to have the words he said to you and what he did be on repeat in your head.I know that this can feel like a reoccurring nightmare and I know that this can make you hate everything about yourself. I know what it is like to feel completely destroyed because of him.

I know that because of what he did to you, you keep things to yourself because you’re too afraid to open up to somebody again... because you don’t want to feel like a burden. I know that you probably laugh things off because laughing distracts you from completely breaking down and crying. I know that what he has done to you has made you so critical of yourself because he constantly knocked you down. I know you are trying to be as strong as you can because you feel like you’re weak if you’re vulnerable. I know that you have lost so much trust because of him and that you’re scared that every important person in your life is going to end up leaving you because he constantly left you, came back, and left again….over and over and over. I know how hard it is being put through all of this by someone you thought cared about and loved you.

I know what it is like to not be able to stop going back to him. I know that every time you go back to him you hope for the best because he promised you that “this time will be different” and that “he changed”…

…but I also know that he never really changed and that this time will be just like the last time, and the time before that, and the time before that. I know that this cycle feels never ending and that you keep putting yourself through this because you want this to work out more than anything.

I know that one day you are going to reach your breaking point. I know that no matter how much you care about him that you will finally realize that he is toxic for you and that you need to get out of this situation as fast as possible. I know that this is going to be hard for you. But I know you can do it…

…and I know that you might not know this, but I want you to know that you are not alone in all of this.

I want you to know that I have gone through what you are going through right now. I want you to know that this is not going to be easy. I want you to know that going through this was one of the hardest things I have ever had to go through. But I want you to know that it was the best decision I made.

So, from someone that has been in your position I need you to know a few things…

I need you to know that even though things are rough right now and seem like they won’t get better, they will. Each and every day will become easier and easier and soon enough you will look back and see that you made the best choice for you. I need you to know that getting away from him will be easier said than done but please whatever you do....do not go back to him. Trust me on this one, never go back to him.

I need you to know that you shouldn’t be afraid to love again. I know it is going to be hard to trust another guy but you have to remember that just because it happened before does not mean it will happen again. You cannot let him stop you from loving another guy again because he has already taken way too much from you.

But most importantly I need you to know that this is not your fault. None of this is your fault. What he did is his choice and there is no way you could have stopped him from hurting you. I need you to know that after you leave him and get away from him you need to surround yourself with people that love you unconditionally. Trust me when I say that you are going to need people in your life that will pour nothing but love into you and be there for you no matter what more than you know right now.