Don't worry about that boy. God, I WISH I could go back and tell you that. He is not worth the late nights you stayed up, he is not worth all the stress and all the failed dates and meet-ups. You have better things to put effort towards, and he is definitely not one of them.
Don't stress about college. All those late nights you stayed up researching and trying to figure out the probability of being admitted, those nights were wasted. All you needed to do was figure out which ones to apply to, and apply. Sweet girl, all that stress and worrying was good for was for breakdowns at 1:00am when you got too overwhelmed. I know you were nervous about committing to a college so early (November 8, 2015!) but the University of Tampa is your place.
Don't worry about not fitting in at college, or being friendless (from past experience). Honestly, high school ain't shit. All that petty drama, all those flaky friends you had all those years... they ain't shit. First, your roommate will become your best friend. And not one of those friends you have all of college and never talk to. She will become one of those friends that will be there for every relationship, breakup, and more. She's one of those friends that will see you at your all-time low, and one of those friends that will push you up to the highest point you can reach, and STILL encourage you to go higher. She's one of those friends that WILL stand by you as you get married. And I am so glad you will have her because you've needed a true friend. And you will find one in her. Second, you have an AMAZING group of girls as your friends here. You're super guarded in high school, but in college, you've come to accept yourself and let people in, and these girls are Golden. I can't wait for you to know them.
You WILL be more involved than in high school. I know that's scary, but all you needed was that push into adulthood and full independence, and you have surprised everyone. You WILL get into a sorority, and not just anyone, but one that is so genuine and so inspirational. Those girls will encourage you and lift you up. Those girls are just the kind of girls you have needed in your life, and you will love them from day one. And you know what, not only will you be a new member, you will be slated as the next Events Director for 2017. How amazing it is to be able to get involved so early in such a special organization. You're going to do just fine, getting involved.
Please stop worrying about your weight. You get a little head start over the summer in the 18352, and it's harder in college to keep that weight off, people love you just the way you are. YOU love yourself (for the first time in a long time) just the way you are. That doesn't mean STOP eating healthy or going to the gym, but stop worrying yourself over an extra hundred calories or a milkshake once in a while.
I know you think that you won't be homesick, especially because you went away for the summer, every summer since you were 8, but you WILL be homesick. And it's okay. You'll become stronger from it, and you'll realize that, you know, maybe this independent-on-my-own thing is kind of nice. But it's also nice to call Nana up and let you know you miss and love her with all your heart, too.
You're gonna have your breakdowns over classes. LORD knows you will. You'll find yourself standing in the middle of your room crying your heart out as your roommate walks in from the shower and just gives you a hug anyway cause she knows you need it. Don't give up, just work that much harder. Know when to give up time to relax and know when it's crunch time. And you know what, at the end of the day, you'll be just fine. As long as you have all your work done, GO OUT! Don't be scared. TRUST ME, you'll be just fine going out on Tuesday or Thursday and coming home at 3 am when you have a 10am and 9am, respectively. Just take naps, frequently. :)
