In my twenty years of life, I have been in one relationship that lasted a total of three months. That was my senior year of high school, and now I am about to be a junior in college. It's not that I don't want a relationship; it's just that I am bad at them. I'll admit it-- if I like you, I become attached very quickly. I love hard. I'm independent and too stubborn sometimes. When someone catches my eye, I invest into quality conversations and learning more about that person. I am incredibly extroverted and am passionate for what I love.
But I suck at relationships.
When I go out on dates and a guy wants to see me again, I freak out on the inside. Or if I try to pursue something, I scare that guy off. It's a lose/lose situation. Casually dating gets old and I'm not about that one-night stand or "friends with benefit" lifestyle.
To The Guy That I Hope To Settle Down With Someday,
Know that I love hard.
If I don't say it outwardly, know that I am devoted to you. I am fiercely independent, but I want to let the right guy into my life and know everything there is to know about me, and vice versa. I will remember a good majority of what you tell me. I'll remember that you hate Ohio State, that you're allergic to pineapple, and that your favorite TV show is "Friday Night Lights." I'll be a shoulder to cry on when you think your world is collapsing around you.
I'm not your typical girl.
I'll go to baseball games, drink pints of beer with you, and cuss out the opposing team. I'll belly up to the bar and be one of the "boys." I hate romantic comedies and will watch action or mystery movies with you.
I don't trust easily.
If it seems like I don't let much off about myself, know that it's not personal. I haven't had a dependable man throughout my life and appear closed-off as a result. Take it with a grain of salt. People only know things about me that are on a basic level. If you gain my trust, take it for what it's worth. Listen to me and try to understand my insecurities.
Know that I'm ambitious.
My dating life has always come second and my career, school, and family take first priority, which is sometimes accidental. Know that I want you, but I am determined to achieve and go after what I want.
Know that you are important to me and that I want you in my life. Give me a chance.
