So at this point in my life, I am just so confused. I have a late night crisis pretty much every night about what I'm going to do, and what I'm going to achieve. I have so many dreams and I'm panicked I won't be able to achieve everything I want.

I turn 20 years old in a few days and for some reason, I'm so stressed because I think that's when my life actually starts.

As if I haven't been living my life this entire time. I believe for some reason that there is going to be some earth-shattering occurrence on my 20th birthday where I turn into a real adult and have to have my entire life planned out perfectly. I feel as though I have a few days left in order to decide what path I'm going to go down.

So in order to go about finding myself, I buckled down and took quite a few personality tests. I hoped that the results of the tests would give me some answers that I was desperately searching for. I couldn't put my tongue on exactly what I wanted or expected, but these tests gave me some clarity and some understanding of myself that I hadn't realized before.

So I took the enneagram, which I 10/10 recommend taking because it talks about all your strengths and builds you up but also talks about your weaknesses (which is SUPER important.)

I think knowing your strengths and weaknesses can help you understand yourself, and help others understand you. This personality test made me more receptive to my flaws and gave me ways to cope with some of my shortcomings-that I could or couldn't fix.

From taking these tests (and forcing all my friends to take them as well) made me realize that everyone is so different, and NO ONE actually has a life plan, and turning one year older will not have to change your life.

Although I have not drastically changed my life or myself in the past few days since taking this test, I have decided to give myself more grace and to accept life as it comes to me.