To The Boys I've Learned From

I want to start by saying that I have no resentment towards you. I am so thankful for the time we did spend together and for all that I learned from you. However, I am glad that our time together came to an end.

I don't blame you for not wanting me. I can't be mad at you for not wanting to be with me. It sucked, but I can't blame you for being human. People don't always choose to hurt others, even when they do, so I forgive you.

Because of you, I learned that I deserve to be in a relationship that makes me happy; a relationship that feeds the soul and helps me grow. I learned that I am worthy of connections that are loving, nourishing, kind, and authentic. Because of you, I have learned that I should never settle for anything less than the man I deserve. The places I visit and the people I journey through life with should make me feel safe, loved, and enough; and you didn't.

I have found that I deserve someone who loves me with every beat of his heart and someone who is constantly thinking about me. I need someone that helps me to accomplish my goals and protect me from my fears. I need someone who will always treat me with respect, love every part of me, especially the things I am insecure about. I should be with someone who makes me happy, so happy, smiling for no reason, happy.

Because of you, I found a man that loves me with his whole heart, and more. I found someone who cares about all parts of me, not just my physical being. I found someone who loves God and helps me grow in my relationship with Him. I found someone who builds me up, not tear me down. Someone who has taught me to love who I am and see life from a whole new perspective.

Because of you, I learned that love doesn't have to be pretty. But because of that, I have come to the realization that you have to have the ugly side of love to cherish that beautiful and extraordinary side of love.

I can only hope you learned from your mistakes and that you find someone that makes you happy.

I wish you the best.