Dear you,

I remember when we first met, you were such a mystery to me, a mystery I knew I should stay away from. Despite my best efforts, you charmed your way into my life and my heart. We were great for a while, I loved being the girl who had the boy everyone else wanted, it made me feel powerful. We spent a year in love, and within that year we started to plan our future together.

I can't pinpoint when, but our love started to change, you started to change. You began to emotionally abuse me because my flaws became too much and I latched onto you too tight. You convinced me that I was the problem, that I was the reason our relationship went south. When we ended, it was dramatic, and despite what you put me through, I fought so hard for you to see that we were right for each other. Looking back I should not have ever fought for you because that lead to my downfall.

Instead of just ending and never speaking again, we kept using each other for company and it lead me to think that maybe you still wanted to be with me. I let any doubt I had get pushed to the back of my head because you made me feel special again. When you decided to find another girl to date, it broke me. I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I had to erase you from my memory. I lived my life as if you never happened, and then you came back to me because your long-distance girlfriend wasn't there to keep you company. I allowed myself to become "the other girl" in your twisted love story.

Since that moment you came back, my life had been on a constant downward spiral. However, now that I have finally rid myself of you, I can see that you were the main cause of that. It was my fault for letting you back in all those times, but it was your fault for abusing my weakness. You became the trigger I just couldn't stop pulling, and you knew that. I allowed myself to be the girl you slept with when your current fling was busy, and when you left to go back to her, I wondered what it was that she had that I did not. Then I realized that it was not what she had that I didn't, it was what I had that she didn't.

You crave girls who need you, you get a high from knowing that some poor girl is crying out for you to solve all of her problems. I stopped being weak enough for you to manipulate, I stopped needing you for my own happiness, and that is the greatest gift I have ever given myself. I refuse to be the girl that cries over you, that's someone else's job now. I am the girl who is stronger than you'll ever be, the girl who will never allow herself to be spoken to the way you've spoken to me, the girl who you will always miss. We both know a part of you will always long for me, but what you don't know is that you aren't my hero anymore. You aren't capable of saving someone, and I know one day, all the other girls will realize that too.

I won't say that I hate you because that is too much anger. What I will say is that I hope you learn to be alone, I hope you learn to love yourself so you stop hurting girls who are better off without you. Take it from the girl you left, it is a great accomplishment to be able to be happy on your own.