You are unbelievable. You are charming as well, but not in a positive way. In a way that you captivated her once more, and then broke her heart for the second time. You had it all planned out this time around, acted as if you’ve had some revelation that you two are supposed to be together. You held her in her arms and fed her your lies, that you’ve grown up, you don’t want to be with anyone else, you want it to be just you two this time around.
She put her trust in you, made her vulnerable once again, just for you to make her regret it a few months later. Congratulations, you had her wrapped around your finger, just to embarrass her in the end. Against our better judgment as her friends, she let you back in with open arms, so we tried our best to do the same. However, then it was us who held her in our arms, the exact position that you should have been, and wiped her tears that she shed over you.
This is a familiar position we have been in before, helping her pick herself back up, after you carelessly knocked her down. She is fragile and you knew that but, when it comes to getting what you want, nothing stops you. You are selfish. To you, your feelings come first, they are they only feelings you understand how to tend to. When it comes to anyone else’s feelings you become lost and end up taking the easy way out. The easy way meaning, you ignore the other person’s feelings and do what makes you happy.
That right there was the main issue with your relationship- you’re a narcissist. Your friends also tended to be a negative influence on you. You always felt like you had something to prove to them, which ultimately pushed her more and more into the shadows. You can basically be summed up into one word: a coward. You truly did care about her but your actions just did not reflect it, which may be because your priorities were out of sync.
Until you are able to process other’s feelings you will be alone, I promise you. For the next girl’s sake, I hope you are able to better yourself because no one deserves your wrath. The only thing that brings me peace is the fact that she will never be a victim of your immaturity again.
As for her, she will move on to someone better, someone who can put her feelings first. She is strong and can conquer anything she sets her mind to especially, getting over you. She is beautiful and unique, two qualities that you won’t find in those other girls, that you most likely will string along for two days. Her intelligence will bring her places in the future, places you won’t be able to be a part of. However, she gave her all to this relationship so, I consider this to truly be your loss.
