There was a point at which you asked me if I was OK and when you did, I broke down in tears. It wasn't just a tear or two. It was a full-on ugly cry; you know the one I'm talking about. The one where it was impossible to choke out words, the one where your T-shirt gets soaked in tears, the one where you think you're OK but you start crying harder. It's crazy, because before this time of my life, I didn't think this kind of pain and hurt actually existed.
Thank you for loving me when I was having trouble loving myself.
I don't think you'll know how much that has meant to me. I couldn't even accept who I am at those moments and you were there to do that for me.
Thank you for reminding me who I am at my highest point.
You constantly reminding me who I am at my best was more helpful than I could put in words. I'm forever thankful for the friends I have who were able to see my best in spite of the long nights of tears and frustration.
Thank you for you for picking me up every time I fell.
Emotionally, I seemed to be more on the ground than I was on my feet and I'm sure you got tired of constantly having to bend down and pick me up but I'm so thankful that you did.
And picking me up again and again.
Just know that if it hadn't have been for you I probably would've been stuck there.
Thank you for not holding it against me.
You very easily could've held my tears and anger and frustration all against me. But you didn't. You used it to make me stronger. You used it to remind me that I am not that person.
Thank you for showing me how close happiness is.
"It's just a breath away, but you have to keep breathing." Enough said.
Thank you for constantly reminding me that it's life.
I couldn't even give an estimate as to how many times you've told me this is just for a season and I will be OK. Daily. I know you felt like a broken record but every time you told me, I got a little bit stronger. It finally clicked; I finally was understanding what you were saying.
Thank you for losing sleep for me.
The long nights that turned into mornings because I couldn't sleep, the nights when I just wanted to sit in silence for hours, the nights when I didn't even want to get out of the car after we've been out, the nights that I called you at 2 a.m. and woke you up. Thank you for that.
Most importantly, thank you for being my best friend, no matter what.
I know I've ignored your texts. I know I've also blown up your phone. I know I haven't been a good friend but know that I love you more than words are able to describe. I more thankful for you than I could ever say. I am so blessed to have such a good friend in my life.
I hit what some would call rock bottom. I wouldn't have been able to go through this all without you. I could never repay you for loving me so unconditionally, even at my worst.