To the boy with the Justin Bieber hair,
Hey. It’s me. You know, the girl who you told you would love forever and never leave? I’m still here. I’m still standing tall even though you left. There are so many things that I could say to you right now. I could tell you how much you hurt me, or how you made me feel like I was worthless when you left. But instead, I have one very important thing to say; thank you. Thank you for leaving. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Thank you for teaching me to be independent.
When we were together, I never thought I would be able to live without you. I relied on you to always be there. I never imagined that you would leave, so when you first did I didn’t think I would be able to survive it. But I can and I am.
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to reconnect with my friends.
I gave up everything for you when we were together, and because of it my friends weren’t very happy for me. But your leaving made me realize that friendship is more important than anything else. Boyfriends leave; but best friends, even if you ignored them for that stupid boy, will always be there for you. You were always the person to make me happiest, but you left and I needed to find someone else to lift me up. I found that in the friends I had been neglecting since we started talking. So thank you.
Thank you for teaching me that I am more important than a boy loving me.
Everything I ever did, was done to impress you or to keep you or to please you. I never did anything for myself because I thought you were more important. I wanted you to love me enough to stay, so I did everything I could think of to make that happen. But you still left. And because you did, I finally learned that I am the most important person in my life and I should make myself happy first. But that’s not what love is and I wouldn’t have been able to learn that if you didn’t leave.
Thank you for never looking back.
I was torn apart when you left. I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t even leave my bed. I was so lost without you there. I am positive that if you would have showed up at my dorm apologizing and begging me to take you back, that I would have done it without hesitation. And I would have been trapped right back in the lifestyle I was before. So thank you for not coming back. Thank you for letting me go. Because you did, I was able to find myself.
I no longer define myself by your love. I am happy, my friends are incredible, and college is amazing. You’re not here but that’s okay. You taught me the most important lessons that I could have learned at this point in my life. And it’s all because you left. Thank you.
Thank you,
The girl who finally loves herself
