It has been over a year since we met, the first time I saw you I smiled for the first time in a long time. You were quiet and shy, while I was bubbly and talkative. I thought I scared you off a couple of times but you stuck around anyway. When you quit your job I thought that I would never see you again. But look at us now.
When you met me I was a mess. I got out of a bad relationship, was currently in a bad relationship but you saw something in me. When we first started talking you treated me like a person. Not an object or a trophy, an actual person. You would tell me jokes to get me to laugh, compliment me in the most gentlemanly way possible, and we would talk for hours before you had to go to bed.
On our first date with your family in tow, I had no clue of what to expect. I saw you treat me like a queen before I was even your queen. You showed me that I could be brave and ride a carnival ride that practically was held together by duct tape. Then got me out of my comfort zone when you made me ride that thing twice. That night is my favorite night in the whole world because without knowing what you have done, I fell in love with you.
Over this past year I have never felt as happy as I am now. You are kind to me, make me laugh at dumb jokes, and you make me smile without knowing what I am smiling about.
I know that I can be stubborn, really stubborn, but you love me all the same for it. I get those instances when I am sad for no reason and you just sit there and not say a word because you know that is what I need. You hold me when I cry when you leave from your weekend stay. I try to annoy you in a million ways but you never seem to budge. You make me a better person.
I know that in some way we were meant for each other because why else would you randomly come into my life when I needed you the most. I didn't think I would find my soul mate, the one person I could never live without, my best friend in the dish room of my part time job.
I honestly could never imagine a life without you. If I did have a life without you there would be a lot less sunshine and laughs in it.
When I see you my heart grows, I can feel it is like a disco ball in there; light gleaming off of my heart and reverberating all through out my body. So when I do weird things, make a dumb joke or even make one of my many faces at you, I think about that amazing disco ball feeling that I have right now even as I am writing this.
You encourage me to do new things, make myself a better person, and are the first person ever to actually make me love myself for who I am. Not what I think I should be. I am more confident, strong, and loving with you in my life.
I repeat that I cannot imagine a life without you.
As I am crying while I write this, you know that I am not that much of an emotional person, I pour my love out to you on this keyboard because you know I suck at talking out my feelings.
I just want to say thank you.
Thank you for being my person. Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for being my boyfriend. Thank you for making me a better person. Thank you for being there. Thank you for being you my love.
Forever and always
To the Moon and Back, and Back Out to the Universe.
