Dear You,
Honestly, I want to say thank you. Thank you for putting up with me when I was at my lowest point in my life.
It’s not easy dealing with someone who is tired all of the time, anxious half of the time and can become drenched in depression pretty much any time. Darling, even if we do not talk anymore, thank you for helping me through those dark times.
I’d like to say, because of you, I’ve come out of the darkness, with a positive outlook on life and I’m not consumed by my mental illnesses and my mistakes. I do not let them define me anymore. So thank you for lifting me up when I didn’t think I could get up from the floor, feeling like it was not going to get better anytime soon. And thank you for pushing me to my limits because you believed in me. And thank you for trusting me in times that you probably shouldn’t have, because I was telling the truth.
You see, I don't think you know how much you mean to me, and you will probably never know. But every person that has given me their time of the day to let me vent or just talk, it truly means everything to me.
We all have those days where we feel like we cannot go on any further, especially being a college student. There seems to be always something that goes wrong. Your dreams feel so far away and things just keep getting in the way of that. Whether it is failing an exam, or failing the whole class. Whether you are stuck under the burden of financial aid. Whether you just can't seem to get one concept right. Whether that boy does not see the light in you. We've all be there. So, thank you for those who keep me going and remind me at the end of the day that I am going to be alright; this too shall pass.
During the time I had spent with you, I may have pushed you away, but thank you for teaching me valuable lessons in life, I would not be the same without them. I have been taught to be more open with people. I've been taught to put myself out there and not to be afraid of what anyone will think of me. I've been taught that people definitely say some things that they don't mean when they're angry. I've been taught not to let everyone walk all over me. I've been taught that some people will not always come back after you have pushed them to their limits and you pushed them away.
However, I hope you're doing well. I hope I have been that person for you in the past, and I hope you strive in whatever you do. I will not dwell on the past, but, I’ll cherish all of the good memories I had with you.
To the person who I pushed away, every time they got close, thank you for helping me become the person I am today.